Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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James Lopez
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